A Heavenly Conversation...

A Heavenly Conversation

A baby asked God, "They tell me you are sending me to earth tomorrow,
but how am I going to live there being so small and helpless?"

God said, "Your angel will be waiting for you and will take care of you."

The child further inquired, "But tell me, here in heaven I don't have
to do anything but sing and smile to be happy."

God said, "Your angel will sing for you and will also smile for you.
And you will feel your angel's love and be very happy."

Again the small child asked, "And how am I going to be able to understand
when people talk to me if I don't know the language?"

God said, "Your angel will tell you the most beautiful and sweet words
you will ever hear, and with much patience and care, your angel will
teach you how to speak."

"And what am I going to do when I want to talk to you?"

God said, "Your angel will place your hands together and will teach
you how to pray."

"Who will protect me?"

God said, "Your angel will defend you even if it means risking its life."

"But I will always be sad because I will not see you anymore."

God said, "Your angel will always talk to you about Me and will teach
you the way to come back to Me, even though I will always be next to you."

At that moment there was much peace in Heaven, but voices from Earth
could be heard and the child hurriedly asked, "God, if I am to leave
now, please tell me my angel's name."

God said, You will simply call her, "Mom."

Most of our family and friends know we are pregnant, but now that I am in my 22nd week it is starting to feel more real... literally I can feel HER (its a girl) several times a day! So excited to be this little ones Mom.

:) Simple but to the point.

I don't have a lot to say other than the same 'ol. We are so blessed. We went to a class called marriage refresh at our friend's church this weekend. It was AMAZING. We learned so much. I am so happy, proud, lucky, loved, pampered, blessed. My husband is awesome, I tell him that all the time and I hope he believes me. He just is so sweet. I am so unbelievably lucky. He is my prince charming, my knight in shining armor, my Edward. He loves me so much and makes sure that not only do I know it but everyone around me knows it too. I love you Joe. You are for sure my better half. Happy Valentines. Happy Anniversary, happy everything. February has so far been a great month.

Feeling Strong.

So after a really emotional January things are going really well! For anyone who I didn't tell, we had another miscarriage at the end of January. We were just about to announce that we were 12 weeks pregnant when it happened. :-(

BUT... it is all okay! Through that experienced I realized how many people care about me and my family. The friends who made meals, stopped by, called, emailed, and just cared was amazing. It was the first time I felt that we had been held up by caring hands going through a miscarriage. I do know that others have cared in the past but I didn't allow them in. Now as we go forward with fertility treatments (shots and iui) I know I have the support system that I always wished for! Not to mention my ever supportive and consistently amazing cheerleaders Joe and TJ.

I am so thankful for where we live. I am so excited that Joe's brother Daniel and his wife Stephanie are moving with their daughter Evy. It will be fun to have family close by again. She is pregnant with another one too so it will be so fun to help and be around for that! I love babies!

I seriously love life! God is good.

In love with life.

I love my life. It is far from perfect but it is my life. I love all the things that my trials have taught me, and even though I don't want more trials I LOVE having the knowledge that comes from them.

I was called as my Ward's Nursery Leader and I love it! The kids are amazing and you can tell that all the parents love their little ones. They are learning to recognize Jesus and listen so much better. They keep me motivated to be a better mom.

I am also really learning to enjoy home school. It is so very hard, but worth all the effort. TJ is doing amazing and I am re-learning so many fun things. I can't wait to see what we will be doing next. We have done sculptures, studied the Trojan Horse, learned the difference between insects and spiders, learned the difference between Pyramid worship and Zuggurat worship, and he can counut forever by 2s 5s and I am sure much more than he is letting on.

Its late so I am going to end this but I want to keep this more up to date, so I will give it a try and we will see!

Love you all Friends and Family!!!!

Okay...so here are the rules.

So I haven't posted in forever. I am not sure if I am the best blogger in the world. Oh well, I can't be the best at everything. I decided tonight that for 2010 I would sit down with the new year and instead of making resolutions I would discuss the rules for this year.

You see I understand that I can't control everything...mostly. But after two years of pretty stressful stuff, I am ready for a change. So I am not asking for much. The stress level doesn't have to change...I just want the STRESSES to change. Is that really too much to ask for? And I am not talking about the stuff that is totally my fault. I understand some things I have to change for myself.

I remember being a child and being told, okay wait your turn. I even remember telling my self in adolescence, don't worry it'll be your turn. And sooner or later it was! When I was 21 my grandfather told me okay Brittany you are living right, loving right, and have a good attitude, its gotta be your turn just keep the hope and faith. Guess what! He was right 2 months later I met Joe and it was my BIG TURN!!

So this year is MY TURN 2010! You hear me. Living right, loving right, good attitude. I am set. So that is the one rule for this year. IT IS MY TURN. (And I have a lot of things I am waiting for so its not like 2010 can't deliver at least some.)

:-)

An Infertility Blog

So I need a place to voice my feelings about infertility, but didn't want it to reflect on our family's experiences on the blog. So I started a new blog. Its kinda honest and it will not be a public blog. it will be invite only until I have either gotten comfortable or feel that it will help others more than I will get judged for my feelings. Anyone who has been on this journey before can understand how much of a emotional and personal journey it is compared to just the physicality of it. So if you are interested in hearing about our infertility journey than let me know. But so you know it pretty honest. Pretty graphic (lol well not like gross just telling about some of the things you put your body through). And sometimes I need to vent and feel a little bad for myself so I don't need anyone telling me I am being a baby or anything like that. But the family blog will always be upbeat and fun!

Love ya all!

Seasons

I haven't updated the blog in a couple months. I guess I am not the best blogger in the world. I think its because I doubt many people view it anyways.

I am thinking a lot about seasons right now. Summer is ending and Fall is coming. I love the Fall it is my favorite season of all. I am hoping that this Fall will bring in new "Seasons of Life" for our little family. There are so many journeys we are on right now that I look forward to taking the steps one at a time just to get farther down the road! That is my positive attitude on not particularly liking this Season.

Joe is enjoying work, TJ (who is requesting to be called Thomas more and more) is in 1st grade and is at school ALL DAY! He loves, I love it, we are a happy pair. I am finding myself spending a lot of time coming up with projects. I am knitting a hoodie sweater for TJ, crocheting a baby blanket, cross stitching a Christmas piece, and working on my book. It sounds as if I am keeping busy. But its me just trying to bide my time figuring out what to do. Do I go to work? That feels wrong. Do I go back to school? That feels wrong. What feels like should be happening isn't. Its rather frustrating. I look forward to the day that I can look back and see the bigger picture. I am sure I am learning something and I can't wait to figure out what it is!

I do truly feel blessed. I may have some health struggles, but my overall health is great and so are both Joe and TJs! We have a pleasant home, a good ward, nice neighbors, and Joe and I are enjoying a great time in our marriage. I am truly humbled that the Lord has given me so much. And yet I ask for more! Oh my, I should probably pause and read this blog a few times and let the Lord take some time for others who are less fortunate.

If there are any out there that are reading this and need a good chat or a friend to talk to I have time on my hands! Please let me know if you need support. I know that I have recently realized without my new found support here I would not be a very happy person. We were so directed in our decision to move here.

Well I love you all, and I hope that we all enjoy the new "Season," whether its new seasons in life, or just the change in the weather.